Post by Isabelle Amherst on Nov 3, 2015 3:02:51 GMT -5
Isabelle sat with her back against a wall, deep in the back of the cave where only a few glimmers of light reached, reflecting off the small puddles on the floor to create a faint ambient glow. Though she had developed a habit of sitting with her legs pulled against her chest, as if she could hide from the world behind her knees, that day, she seemed a bit more relaxed. Her legs were out in front of her, and she stared as if entranced by her own two feet, the toes of which she playfully clicked together a few times every once in a while.
Her eyes were fixed on the little gray robots that decorated her shoes. That morning, she found herself running late for rounds for the fourth time that week and consequently in danger of losing her privileges as a prefect, forcing her to abandon the cause of searching for her plain, uniform-compliant black sneakers and grabbing the first pair in sight: her baby blue slip-on flats, decorated with dancing, smiling robots. An old favorite.
The girl was once known as the free spirit, the wild child, the class clown, and such eccentric fashion choices were once staples in her wardrobe... but when she abandoned her love of life, she had also abandoned all color and uniqueness in her wardrobe, instead generally opting for the school uniform to save time: time that the newly broken Isabelle would rather spend getting high than picking out the perfect combination of robots, frogs, and unicorns for an outfit. It didn't happen all at once, but over time, virtually all traces of the former Isabelle were slowly erased, leaving behind a pale, raven-haired shell whose only resemblances to the old Isabelle were her heart-shaped face and big blue eyes... and that day, little robots on her shoes. She smiled a little, a rare occurrence, at the reminder of her distant past. A past where the Ashford Project wasn't completely being run by sociopathic sadists, her best friend had never tried to pull her off life support in a coma, and that best friend never died, certainly not before she had a chance to forgive him. It was a decent life, she thought.
With the pleasant nostalgia lingering in her brain, Isabelle took a long, deep puff of her cigarette.
"He loves me," she muttered for fun, even though there was absolutely no "he" in her life. At least, not any that was alive.
"He loves me not," she muttered after another drag.
She continued on for a bit absentmindedly until she wore the cigarette down to a tiny nub and could find no way to take another puff. She squinted for a moment, unable to remember what phrase she ended on, despite her best efforts, due to the variety of drugs she had taken that day, as she did on any given day.
“He loves me not,” she finished with a shrug, stomping out the cigarette butt, deciding that the conclusion was obvious, regardless of what the silly game had said.
Her eyes were fixed on the little gray robots that decorated her shoes. That morning, she found herself running late for rounds for the fourth time that week and consequently in danger of losing her privileges as a prefect, forcing her to abandon the cause of searching for her plain, uniform-compliant black sneakers and grabbing the first pair in sight: her baby blue slip-on flats, decorated with dancing, smiling robots. An old favorite.
The girl was once known as the free spirit, the wild child, the class clown, and such eccentric fashion choices were once staples in her wardrobe... but when she abandoned her love of life, she had also abandoned all color and uniqueness in her wardrobe, instead generally opting for the school uniform to save time: time that the newly broken Isabelle would rather spend getting high than picking out the perfect combination of robots, frogs, and unicorns for an outfit. It didn't happen all at once, but over time, virtually all traces of the former Isabelle were slowly erased, leaving behind a pale, raven-haired shell whose only resemblances to the old Isabelle were her heart-shaped face and big blue eyes... and that day, little robots on her shoes. She smiled a little, a rare occurrence, at the reminder of her distant past. A past where the Ashford Project wasn't completely being run by sociopathic sadists, her best friend had never tried to pull her off life support in a coma, and that best friend never died, certainly not before she had a chance to forgive him. It was a decent life, she thought.
With the pleasant nostalgia lingering in her brain, Isabelle took a long, deep puff of her cigarette.
"He loves me," she muttered for fun, even though there was absolutely no "he" in her life. At least, not any that was alive.
"He loves me not," she muttered after another drag.
She continued on for a bit absentmindedly until she wore the cigarette down to a tiny nub and could find no way to take another puff. She squinted for a moment, unable to remember what phrase she ended on, despite her best efforts, due to the variety of drugs she had taken that day, as she did on any given day.
“He loves me not,” she finished with a shrug, stomping out the cigarette butt, deciding that the conclusion was obvious, regardless of what the silly game had said.