Post by Isabelle Amherst on Jul 5, 2014 18:22:13 GMT -5
"Together, we'll color the world! One bag of colored corn starch at a time. Dr. Seuss would be so proud." The playful girl who uttered those words, eyes gleaming with liveliness, with a bold smile that dared the world to even try to steal her joy, was a free spirit. That girl was an adventuress, a wild child, a rebel without a cause, a kind soul, a dare devil, and an innocent girl at heart, all in one.
How far Isabelle Amherst had fallen.
Eyes closed, head tilted back, Isabelle gently flicked her forearm, hoping it would miraculously speed up the flow of the blood that was carrying her substance of choice to her brain. Yanking off the rubber tie around her arm that was keeping her veins plump, she breathed a sigh of relief as she felt the combined rush and relaxation. With her signature colorful locks dyed black and her skin even more freakishly pale than usual from lack of sunlight, Isabelle was unrecognizable, but even her dramatically altered looks could not hold a candle to the transformation of her soul. If souls could be seen, then that of a sixteen-year-old Isabelle's would have been a medley of every color on the visible spectrum: bright, shiny, loud, and as bold as she was. Eighteen-year-old Isabelle's soul was black. Opening her eyes just enough to glance around the library to convince herself that no prefects had stumbled into the area for rounds, Isabelle pulled a cigarette and lighter out of her purse. A moment later, she chuckled aloud to herself. Of course there had been no prefects. She was one of the prefects on duty that hour as evidenced by the insignia on the uniform that she happily donned that night for the love of irony. There were others, but she knew exactly where their routes would lead them and had chosen her recluse spot accordingly.
Putting the lit cigarette to her lips and inhaling a lung full of the delicious poison, Isabelle smiled weakly. The smoke came out in an audible sigh. The nicotine gave her a way to avoid thinking about her best friend's second death. Drowning herself in controlled substances, she did not have to acknowledge that the death had come just after their falling-out; just after she told him she didn't care anymore, that he was dead to her. She didn't have to contemplate the thought that she would never get to say sorry or that he died believing she didn't love him and would never wake up to be told otherwise. She could forget that those wrongs would never be amended. For a few minutes, none of that mattered. At least, that was how it started. More recently, her life had become the inverse: a string of inebriation with few occasional minutes of sobriety.
If you were to ask Isabelle about any of this, she would lie to you and to herself. The substances were for fun: a way to add a rush to a meaningless existence. The syringe sitting next to her had nothing to do with anyone named Chandler Fernandez. That careless asshole man-child meant nothing to her anymore.
Sudden noises dragged Isabelle out of her thick haze, and she jumped a bit, realizing that she was not alone in the library after all. Both hastily and groggily, she grabbed the syringe and rubber tie that she had carelessly thrown aside and shoved them inside her purse. "Shit," she muttered, realizing the lit cigarette was still in her hand, and there was nothing in sight to put it out. Too panicked to think clearly, the lost girl held the cigarette behind her back before scanning the area to see if the noises had even been real or in her mind.
How far Isabelle Amherst had fallen.
Eyes closed, head tilted back, Isabelle gently flicked her forearm, hoping it would miraculously speed up the flow of the blood that was carrying her substance of choice to her brain. Yanking off the rubber tie around her arm that was keeping her veins plump, she breathed a sigh of relief as she felt the combined rush and relaxation. With her signature colorful locks dyed black and her skin even more freakishly pale than usual from lack of sunlight, Isabelle was unrecognizable, but even her dramatically altered looks could not hold a candle to the transformation of her soul. If souls could be seen, then that of a sixteen-year-old Isabelle's would have been a medley of every color on the visible spectrum: bright, shiny, loud, and as bold as she was. Eighteen-year-old Isabelle's soul was black. Opening her eyes just enough to glance around the library to convince herself that no prefects had stumbled into the area for rounds, Isabelle pulled a cigarette and lighter out of her purse. A moment later, she chuckled aloud to herself. Of course there had been no prefects. She was one of the prefects on duty that hour as evidenced by the insignia on the uniform that she happily donned that night for the love of irony. There were others, but she knew exactly where their routes would lead them and had chosen her recluse spot accordingly.
Putting the lit cigarette to her lips and inhaling a lung full of the delicious poison, Isabelle smiled weakly. The smoke came out in an audible sigh. The nicotine gave her a way to avoid thinking about her best friend's second death. Drowning herself in controlled substances, she did not have to acknowledge that the death had come just after their falling-out; just after she told him she didn't care anymore, that he was dead to her. She didn't have to contemplate the thought that she would never get to say sorry or that he died believing she didn't love him and would never wake up to be told otherwise. She could forget that those wrongs would never be amended. For a few minutes, none of that mattered. At least, that was how it started. More recently, her life had become the inverse: a string of inebriation with few occasional minutes of sobriety.
If you were to ask Isabelle about any of this, she would lie to you and to herself. The substances were for fun: a way to add a rush to a meaningless existence. The syringe sitting next to her had nothing to do with anyone named Chandler Fernandez. That careless asshole man-child meant nothing to her anymore.
Sudden noises dragged Isabelle out of her thick haze, and she jumped a bit, realizing that she was not alone in the library after all. Both hastily and groggily, she grabbed the syringe and rubber tie that she had carelessly thrown aside and shoved them inside her purse. "Shit," she muttered, realizing the lit cigarette was still in her hand, and there was nothing in sight to put it out. Too panicked to think clearly, the lost girl held the cigarette behind her back before scanning the area to see if the noises had even been real or in her mind.